Sometime late in my first quarter here at PUC, i attended a gathering.
This gather consisted of teenagers and alcohol.
As a semi-responsible person,
my actions at this party should not be as so incriminating as they are currently.
This Monday, February 1st, at 10:45, i will be called into a hearing to discuss my fate.
I'm just waiting for the axe to fall.
In the meantime, i decided to make the most of this bad situation and have a good time.
Went back to San Fransisco last night explored a bit, and saw Polysics live!
a super kickass time back in the city i love!!
well, lets all hope for the best in my current situation.
it looks bleak, regardless of the fact i did not partake that evening.
i'll post again once my fate is decided upon by a selection of mortals.
thanks for striving for a stasis,
it really kept things from being weird,
Michael Castellanos!
Friday, January 29, 2010
Thursday, January 21, 2010
New Blogs!
As of yesterday, i've founded two new blogs:
Do It Yourself For Fucks Sake (DIY Fucker)
a blog solely dedicated to DIY projects
(i've yet to add more than a welcome post, be patient!)
and my favorite
Cinema Thought Vomit
my blog with myself and multiple co-writers dedicated to ideas we all have for movies or short fun things we can film.
keep an eye out for those two!
on a personal note:
i'm still feeling really great.
life is quite groovy, albeit still tough.
i'm beginning to be worried it might be a brain problem.
i am losing track of memory, my perception of things has been quite 'off' lately.
keep me and my precious gray matter in your thoughts.
you are quite the friend,
regardless of your shit,
Michael Castellanos!
Do It Yourself For Fucks Sake (DIY Fucker)
a blog solely dedicated to DIY projects
(i've yet to add more than a welcome post, be patient!)
and my favorite
Cinema Thought Vomit
my blog with myself and multiple co-writers dedicated to ideas we all have for movies or short fun things we can film.
keep an eye out for those two!
on a personal note:
i'm still feeling really great.
life is quite groovy, albeit still tough.
i'm beginning to be worried it might be a brain problem.
i am losing track of memory, my perception of things has been quite 'off' lately.
keep me and my precious gray matter in your thoughts.
you are quite the friend,
regardless of your shit,
Michael Castellanos!
Friday, January 8, 2010
Whats this feeling?
Life feels super good right now.
i'm far away from the home i love.
my coolest friends are over 400 miles away from me.
i have almost no money.
i have no job.
i am at a creative standstill.
i am out of shape.
i broke my keyboard by spilling chocolate milk all over it.
i can't play the guitar at my side.
my hair is falling out.
i have homework to do.
i've lost the connection with the girl i fell in love with,
what we once had has died,
and i don't know if i could've done anything to stop it from happening.
attempts to make connections with other women have been in vain.
but i feel confidant, i have hope, i have music, and i feel really good.
i'm just not entirely sure why.
i'm not sure what i'm hoping for either.
has the line between how i should feel and how i want to feel
been so blurred i can't tell the difference anymore?
what is going on with this fantastic mood.
everything is just glorious right now.
Michael Castellanos?
i'm far away from the home i love.
my coolest friends are over 400 miles away from me.
i have almost no money.
i have no job.
i am at a creative standstill.
i am out of shape.
i broke my keyboard by spilling chocolate milk all over it.
i can't play the guitar at my side.
my hair is falling out.
i have homework to do.
i've lost the connection with the girl i fell in love with,
what we once had has died,
and i don't know if i could've done anything to stop it from happening.
attempts to make connections with other women have been in vain.
but i feel confidant, i have hope, i have music, and i feel really good.
i'm just not entirely sure why.
i'm not sure what i'm hoping for either.
has the line between how i should feel and how i want to feel
been so blurred i can't tell the difference anymore?
what is going on with this fantastic mood.
everything is just glorious right now.
Michael Castellanos?
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Reflections of 2009
Ladies and people, 2009 has come and gone.
lets all see what it has to show for itself after the jump!
lets all see what it has to show for itself after the jump!
Thursday, December 24, 2009
More Neglect
hello there!
i feel i'm neglecting this thing way too often.
but i guess i just don't have much going on my life to talk about.
Merry Christmas Eve!
Life Updates:
- i lost my backpack, all my photo negatives were in there. ...and my journal..
- looks like quarter one journal won't be published anytime soon, sorry.
- as mexicans, we're gonna open presents in about three hours! i'm fairly excited!
- new film Block is finished!!!
watch is here!
and Donate to Cinemapod Pictures!
- planned and executed my first crazyass party, i don't remember much of it, success.
- christmas shopping was less than extravagant. got videogames for my brothers, still need to paint a helmet for a friend, and buy stuff from a folk music store for another. i'm deciding on whether or not to make something for another friend, but after the shit i've been through, i might decide against getting her anything. but i still want to, just because i have a cool idea for a gift. might get stuff for other people as well, just don't have the time or money, maybe later, ya know, late christmas presents. hahaha
well thats all for now.
stay tuned for my next post: Reflections of 2009.
Pleasant Holidays to You All,
Michael Castellanos!
i feel i'm neglecting this thing way too often.
but i guess i just don't have much going on my life to talk about.
Merry Christmas Eve!
Life Updates:
- i lost my backpack, all my photo negatives were in there. ...and my journal..
- looks like quarter one journal won't be published anytime soon, sorry.
- as mexicans, we're gonna open presents in about three hours! i'm fairly excited!
- new film Block is finished!!!
watch is here!
and Donate to Cinemapod Pictures!
- planned and executed my first crazyass party, i don't remember much of it, success.
- christmas shopping was less than extravagant. got videogames for my brothers, still need to paint a helmet for a friend, and buy stuff from a folk music store for another. i'm deciding on whether or not to make something for another friend, but after the shit i've been through, i might decide against getting her anything. but i still want to, just because i have a cool idea for a gift. might get stuff for other people as well, just don't have the time or money, maybe later, ya know, late christmas presents. hahaha
well thats all for now.
stay tuned for my next post: Reflections of 2009.
Pleasant Holidays to You All,
Michael Castellanos!
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Eleven Down, One To Go.
December!
okay, so i'm rarely posting up on this bloggy asshole.
mostly because i don't really have much to write about that isn't about self-loathing and me being a sad sack. (which is neither fun to read or write, so i'm trying to do both of us a favor.)
i haven't been writing much in the ol' journal for similar reasons.
anywho,
i went back home for a week for thanksgiving. it rocked pretty fucking hard. being away from this shit hole for a week was fantastic and just what i needed. as you can probably tell, what slim hopes i had of liking it here in Angwin were slowly, surely, and brutally extinguished. so in short: puc is slowly killing my soul and depression is seeping through my once pleasant exterior once again, great.
but regardless of how i feel i'm going to pin this little phase on the fact i'm still a teenager, and teenagers are stupid.
in business news,
i haven't touched Yesterday's News, Vita, or another untitled project i'm working on. i did, in fact finish filming the short Block, i am currently editing it, and will be finishing it by the end of the week. Here is a raw still from Block:
i'm hoping it will turn out alright in the end, we lost too much daylight on the last available day to film and had to improvise like crazy. it was a lot of fun working behind a camera on a no boundary story once again. but now that i'm procrastinating on my dying computer in this dorm room i call an Editing Bay, i find myself full of mixed feelings. Editing is a bitch.
i've decided on not giving up,
but i haven't decided on what exactly i'm not giving up on.
quite the conundrum.
Michael Castellanos!
okay, so i'm rarely posting up on this bloggy asshole.
mostly because i don't really have much to write about that isn't about self-loathing and me being a sad sack. (which is neither fun to read or write, so i'm trying to do both of us a favor.)
i haven't been writing much in the ol' journal for similar reasons.
anywho,
i went back home for a week for thanksgiving. it rocked pretty fucking hard. being away from this shit hole for a week was fantastic and just what i needed. as you can probably tell, what slim hopes i had of liking it here in Angwin were slowly, surely, and brutally extinguished. so in short: puc is slowly killing my soul and depression is seeping through my once pleasant exterior once again, great.
but regardless of how i feel i'm going to pin this little phase on the fact i'm still a teenager, and teenagers are stupid.
in business news,
i haven't touched Yesterday's News, Vita, or another untitled project i'm working on. i did, in fact finish filming the short Block, i am currently editing it, and will be finishing it by the end of the week. Here is a raw still from Block:
i'm hoping it will turn out alright in the end, we lost too much daylight on the last available day to film and had to improvise like crazy. it was a lot of fun working behind a camera on a no boundary story once again. but now that i'm procrastinating on my dying computer in this dorm room i call an Editing Bay, i find myself full of mixed feelings. Editing is a bitch.
i've decided on not giving up,
but i haven't decided on what exactly i'm not giving up on.
quite the conundrum.
Michael Castellanos!
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Neglect (i'm sorry blog!)
well i suppose i haven't been here in a while.
lots of strange new things happening.
sometimes great, sometimes awful.
i haven't been posting much here since i have been currently "writing" a journal.
once the year? semester? quarter? is over, i will publish this journal for free tickets for entry into my brain.
Updates:
- Need to film movie
- Yesterday's News is constantly changing plot
- Vita is untouched
- New short 'BLOCK' is currently being written
- San Francisco is EXPENSIVE and is draining my wallet
- Relationships with "tha' ladies": poor, as usual tradition
- Currently trying to change Relationship status: (see above update)
- Still trying to grow a beard
- Doodle-Book has turned into a quasi-journal, possible zine soon?
- Learned the difference between Quasi and Pseudo.
- May write and publish life stories as script/zine/short story since the subject has yet to come up in any conversations with anyone.
- Is keeping a .txt file of quotes people around me have said, just for movie additions.
- Bought an XBOX 360, modded it, found out MANY modded consoles are currently being caught and banned. i fear for my 360.
- Have been watching many old movies.
- I have MANY movies on my list of movies to watch, its actually stressing me out.
- Totally missing home and disliking it here.
- I'm kind of in a band now? (Classic Surf Rock Band?)
- I'm desperate for money and companionship but I refuse to merge the two in fear of what i may become.
- Suddenly getting in touch with old acquaintances, or getting to know people more than i used to know about them.
And i'm finding it strange.
i suppose that's all that's new.
please keep reading for further update.
feel free to comment, i'd like to hear reactions to my finger thoughts.
please consider me for the position,
i'm really a qualified guy,
and yeah, this is me applying for the job nonchalantly!
Michael Castellanos!
lots of strange new things happening.
sometimes great, sometimes awful.
i haven't been posting much here since i have been currently "writing" a journal.
once the year? semester? quarter? is over, i will publish this journal for free tickets for entry into my brain.
Updates:
- Need to film movie
- Yesterday's News is constantly changing plot
- Vita is untouched
- New short 'BLOCK' is currently being written
- San Francisco is EXPENSIVE and is draining my wallet
- Relationships with "tha' ladies": poor, as usual tradition
- Currently trying to change Relationship status: (see above update)
- Still trying to grow a beard
- Doodle-Book has turned into a quasi-journal, possible zine soon?
- Learned the difference between Quasi and Pseudo.
- May write and publish life stories as script/zine/short story since the subject has yet to come up in any conversations with anyone.
- Is keeping a .txt file of quotes people around me have said, just for movie additions.
- Bought an XBOX 360, modded it, found out MANY modded consoles are currently being caught and banned. i fear for my 360.
- Have been watching many old movies.
- I have MANY movies on my list of movies to watch, its actually stressing me out.
- Totally missing home and disliking it here.
- I'm kind of in a band now? (Classic Surf Rock Band?)
- I'm desperate for money and companionship but I refuse to merge the two in fear of what i may become.
- Suddenly getting in touch with old acquaintances, or getting to know people more than i used to know about them.
And i'm finding it strange.
i suppose that's all that's new.
please keep reading for further update.
feel free to comment, i'd like to hear reactions to my finger thoughts.
please consider me for the position,
i'm really a qualified guy,
and yeah, this is me applying for the job nonchalantly!
Michael Castellanos!
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